Some faaltu time, an apology not made and a movie..

Rays of truth,
explode forth
after an age of being crushed
buried, shrouded,
obscured, clouded.

Fighting a lost cause,
for years now
No idea why
No clue how.

Such a beautiful battle
An adorable strife
Torn between emotions
Denial vs Acceptance
life vs Life.

Re living those moments
Relishing memories some
Thoughts that were erased
Feelings that were overcome

Run so far away from
My essence, my core
What was so beautiful
to me, inherent before.

Why fight what is pure
So sublime yet strong?
It is mine to endure,
to possess, to belong.

Maybe it's the jingoism,
It goes to my head
Made promises to keep
Am breaking them instead

Caught today in the act
of a play
Scripted to keep all
obvious at bay.

It seems impossible now
To stop, to restrain.
To pretend, lie and vow
To never speak the truth again.