ONE

Is it getting better? Do you feel the same?
Will it make easier on you now,
when you've got someone to blame?

So much has happened in the past year and yet all IS the same. I am still striving to find the right balance. The right chord between dedicated academic achievement and multidimensional artistic endeavours.

There is SO much I'd like to gain, achieve and I know I have only 2 years left in which to do that. The last three have been more of aimless wandering.

Even now I am spending my time drawing Aragorn's eyes - those beautiful almond shaped brilliant blue eyes, perched with my book in the tallest tower of the campus, insulated from the tortured life below. Beneath me winter has struck thrice and withdrawn.

I have taken an oath, an honest heart-felt sentiment clad in cheesy taglines. I do not know if I will be able to live up to it for another 790 days.

Did I disappoint you?

Apparently I did. I wish I could show you my heart, my intention, the blazing fire of dedication. I wish I had cared enough to turn up. I was too busy losing my way. I wish I knew all this was a test, I would not have failed you then.

I just wish I can live every moment of my life - achieve all that I am capable of , all that I desire to. I hope the intensity of flitting resolution would make up for the transcendence of its existence.

Have you come here for forgiveness?
Have you come to raise the dead?
Have you come to play Jesus,
to the lepers in your head.

ONE life