I just HAVE to write this down! Before the emotion flies away, lost in some forgotten corner of my memory. Just came across the Orkut profile of this girl who was/is the girlfriend of a good friend of mine. I had absolutely no idea what she was like till now, and even now her pic and profile are but scant sketches. Also since this is the only girl he ever went out with, had no idea what he would settle for.
My first reaction is simply :O :O I just can't believe it! I had thought this girl would be gorgeous to begin with, simply breathtaking! Given the cribs IITian guys have with IITian girls not looking good, and their obsession with all the non -IIT women, I had come to believe they would go for and get a stunner. What binds people together is intellectual similarities, ideological common ground, the ability to understand each other and similar outlook. If all that doesn't come easy then at the very least they would go for looks, was what I was convinced about!!
Nature maybe? But from everything I've heard about this girl, she isn't an angel!My first reaction is simply :O :O I just can't believe it! I had thought this girl would be gorgeous to begin with, simply breathtaking! Given the cribs IITian guys have with IITian girls not looking good, and their obsession with all the non -IIT women, I had come to believe they would go for and get a stunner. What binds people together is intellectual similarities, ideological common ground, the ability to understand each other and similar outlook. If all that doesn't come easy then at the very least they would go for looks, was what I was convinced about!!
Needless to say I'm stumped!
But more than that I am horrified and disgusted at myself! In all of this I seem to be the shallowest person! Judging that girl by her orkut pic alone, assuming the right to analyse other people's affairs and on what ground? Looks?
When did I become so hollow, so meaningless, so flimsy? When did I start looking at people as if they were objects of scrutiny and that too only skin deep?!!
There was a time when I was not this. I was a fat, lousy dresser with messy hair, in a pair of jeans and shirt or some suit, not giving a second glance at the unnecessarily long mirror in my room. But I didn't care! That's it. I could wear purple with yellow and not give a damn! I didn't care what anyone else looked like either....I had the knack of looking straight into a person's being and picking out people that way.
Today I go to the gym, whenever I can. I rue the fact that my bathroom has only 3/4 of a full mirror. I go shopping to buy skirts and heels. I plan to get fancy haircuts done before my hopeful rendezvous with the beach. I splurge money on jewellery which I flaunt whenever I can!
Was this what I was brought up to be? I am mighty scared the answer might be No!
he he..liked your post..don't want to comment on judging aspect..but a few things like buying the fancy things or giving that extra minute to yourself in a mirror is not a mighty sin :-)..feeling good by doing what you like so that in the process you are not hurting anyone is not a crime :-).Forget about evaporating into nothingness and shallowness :P..the person(character) you are today has already been made :-)
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